Monday, August 1, 2011

First Weigh In

"...God loves you so much that He doesn't want you to stay in a place of defeat."

"...God loves you so much that He doesn't want you to stay in a place of defeat."

"...God loves you so much that He doesn't want you to stay in a place of defeat."

"...God loves you so much that He doesn't want you to stay in a place of defeat."

Craving God, A 21-Day Devotional Challenge by Lysa TerKeurst


I need to pound this message into my head. I am feeling unbelievably defeated today.

After a week of hard workouts, and mostly staying within my calorie limit, I only lost .4 lbs, per my official weigh in.

That is very depressing, especially mid-week showed a 3 lb loss.

Did I really screw it up that badly over the weekend? I didn't think so, but apparently I did.

I want to cry. I feel like I will never get past this right now. It doesn't help that I am utterly exhausted from my 2-year-old keeping me during the night.

I know it's not right to feel this way, but I feel like I am being punished. I feel like a failure. Like I will never ever get there.

I guess this is when God wants me to lean on Him more. But I am a failure at that too.

How do I do it, when the roll is in my mouth before I can even think to rely on Him, to turn to prayer? I don't get it, I just don't.

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