Overall, it has not been a stunning day. After a seemingly good night's sleep - well, at least not bad for me - I have been in a foggy funk all day. These are the days it's hard. These are the days that I don't understand why. I need answers to these physical issues that make me feel this way.
Anyway, I stayed within my calorie limit although I did work in a Hershey's bar in there. Sigh.
Didn't make it to the gym.
Stellar.
Tuesday, July 26, 2011
Rough morning
I seemed to sleep okay last night. So I'm not sure why I feel like I'm still asleep. This is the part of life I hate right now, feeling like this. I am mean and cranky to my girls. I need to go read.
On to other things. I weighed in this morning. Forgot to yesterday. So my official starting weight is 216. Ugh. Most of the weight I lost in January put back on. About what I expected with all the eating out this month and indulging otherwise.
Going to go read and try to find a better perspective.
On to other things. I weighed in this morning. Forgot to yesterday. So my official starting weight is 216. Ugh. Most of the weight I lost in January put back on. About what I expected with all the eating out this month and indulging otherwise.
Going to go read and try to find a better perspective.
Monday, July 25, 2011
End of the Day
Well, my Last Monday has been a successful one. I ate within my calorie limits and no forbidden foods. I went to the gym and spent 45 minutes on the treadmill. A total of 12 of those minutes were spent running (okay jogging at best, but you get the idea), and I pushed my speed on a couple of intervals.
I am thankful that God gave me strength today to do what I need to do.
The first small step in a very long journey.
I am thankful that God gave me strength today to do what I need to do.
The first small step in a very long journey.
The Last Monday
"But in that moment of temptation, I realized having a pity party was a clue I was relying on my own strength, a strength that has failed me before and would fail me again."
"Compromise upon compromise equals failure. Promise upon promise creates empowerment."
"What if this battle with food isn't the curse we've always thought it to be? What if it's actually the very thing, if brought under control, that can lead us to a better understanding of God?"
"The reality is, we all have things in our lives that we have to learn to surrender, give up, sacrifice, turn away from."
"...only persevering with God will make us truly full, complete, not lacking anything."
Lysa TurKeurst, Made to Crave
So it is here. The Last Monday.
My morning started off reading a chapter from Made to Crave, "It's Not Fair". These are truths that stood out to me in my reading.
Breakfast was a smoothie with almond butter, banana and greek yogurt. One of my favorites.
A trip to the Y later with my girls.
My prayer is that God will fill me this day.
"Compromise upon compromise equals failure. Promise upon promise creates empowerment."
"What if this battle with food isn't the curse we've always thought it to be? What if it's actually the very thing, if brought under control, that can lead us to a better understanding of God?"
"The reality is, we all have things in our lives that we have to learn to surrender, give up, sacrifice, turn away from."
"...only persevering with God will make us truly full, complete, not lacking anything."
Lysa TurKeurst, Made to Crave
So it is here. The Last Monday.
My morning started off reading a chapter from Made to Crave, "It's Not Fair". These are truths that stood out to me in my reading.
Breakfast was a smoothie with almond butter, banana and greek yogurt. One of my favorites.
A trip to the Y later with my girls.
My prayer is that God will fill me this day.
Sunday, July 24, 2011
Why The Last Monday?
As those who have long struggled with weight know, there is always a Monday. Always a reason to put off losing weight. Always another excuse to indulge today, because "I'll start my diet Monday."
Lately, I've had too many Mondays. Too many days of starting over, instead of simply sticking with it. Too many weekends of letting myself indulge "just this once."
I'm done. I'm so over it.
So after another weekend of gorging on pizza and other delicious carbs, another Sunday morning of waking up with the "carb hangover" as I call it, I am done.
Tomorrow will be a Monday. But I am so incredibly determined that it will be my last.
I'm tired of feeling tired and miserable and full of self-loathing. I want to be able to love myself, enjoy my body and return to feeling the strong and healthy me that I once was.
Lately, I've had too many Mondays. Too many days of starting over, instead of simply sticking with it. Too many weekends of letting myself indulge "just this once."
I'm done. I'm so over it.
So after another weekend of gorging on pizza and other delicious carbs, another Sunday morning of waking up with the "carb hangover" as I call it, I am done.
Tomorrow will be a Monday. But I am so incredibly determined that it will be my last.
I'm tired of feeling tired and miserable and full of self-loathing. I want to be able to love myself, enjoy my body and return to feeling the strong and healthy me that I once was.
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